Jesus: my comfort and strength.

13 Dec

Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.” -Psalm 23:4

As a little girl I would get really nervous about things. If I heard a sound in the dark my heart would start pattering a thousand beats a minute. If I had to do something outside my comfort zone, same thing. I was very fearful of a lot of things. My mom had me memorize the above verse as a way of being able to comfort myself and find strength in God. Anytime I would hear that bump in the night I would just repeat the verse over and over in my head until I was reminded that God was in control! Even as a little girl I knew my Jesus was the source of my comfort. He gave me the courage and strength to be able to conquer whatever obstacle was in front of me. I never realized just how much I’d appreciate my mom having me commit this to memory.

As I grew older, and wasn’t as fearful of the things the world threw at me, I didn’t see the need to keep this verse at the front of my memory and it just got pushed further and further into the back of my mind. (Funny how quickly we forget the things that bring such comfort.) I still had fears, they just weren’t so severe that they shook my very core.

Today I was sitting on the couch wondering why the heck Best Buy has to schedule Scott completely opposite of my work schedule. I haven’t really seen him in the last two days and I won’t see him at all tomorrow. I miss him a lot with this road block in our time spent together. It’s made me realize just how hard this Air Force life is going to be on me. Even though we still share the same bed at night I miss the quality time to just talk and laugh. With the Air Force I won’t even get the joy of rolling over in the middle of the night and knowing he’s right beside me. He’ll be gone. Three long months of lonely.

My heart went back to that same panic I felt as a little girl standing all alone in the dark. Somehow Psalm 23:4 broke through all the cobwebs and burst to the front of my memory and sure enough ended up on the tip of my tongue again. “Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil, for you are with me; your rod and your staff, they comfort me.” I felt the peace of Jesus picking me up into His arms and telling me “I got this!” A rush of relief swept over my body. My God is awesome and powerful and He has a wonderful plan for us!!!

I’m not going to let this verse slip back into the dusty corners of my mind. I’m keeping it right up front so I’m prepared for any fear that sneaks up on me during these next few years of uncertainty.

Thank you Jesus for being everything I need!


2 Responses to “Jesus: my comfort and strength.”

  1. Ann Maloney December 16, 2011 at 2:14 pm #

    Alyssa, you are such a blessing to me!! I am so proud of you!! Now I’m crying! As you and Scott go out on your adventure, I am so glad that you will rely on Jesus to be your comfort in time of need. That gives me a peace that I will be able to to release you into His capable hands!! I love you, Mom

    • Ann Maloney December 16, 2011 at 2:19 pm #

      I’m not sure I’m doing this right. :) Mom

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